What If?

My women's small group just finished up Calm My Anxious Heart, by Linda Dillow. It was a fabulous book (also mentioned here). It's about finding contentment amidst worry and anxiety, and I would say it's the best book about worry I have ever read. It's written for women, but has some good universal points for all.

I know about worry. I have struggled with worry all my life.

The last few chapters of the book were about trusting God with the what ifs, if onlys, and the whys.

The chapter about the what ifs really stuck out to me, as I think that's what I struggle with the most. I really struggled when I was younger with what if questions, and I had lots of sleeping problems with it. What if the house catches on fire while I'm sleeping? What if someone tries to rob us? What if something happens to my parents?

Logically, I knew that these questions were ridiculous and not worth worrying about, because God would protect me, but that didn't make the fears seem any less real. Thankfully, the summer after 6th grade, my family took a missions trip to Ecuador, which was extremely life changing for me (but that's another long story for another post...).

Nowadays, I don't feel like I struggle with questions like those, but worry is still a part of me that I have to continually surrender to God. Personally, the what ifs are the worst for me because it's about the future, which I don't know, but thankfully God does. Too often I try to  handle the future on my own or try to figure out my own plans.

But, figuring out my own future won't work. I'm thankful for a big and mighty God who is sovereign over my life, and over Kley's life. We had a long talk last night about the worries of law school. I'm so thankful that we can trust God with our worries and that He is the ultimate guider, provider, and protector.

Worry's got nothing on God. He's already won.