As I talked about last time, I think patience will be a difficult lesson for be in these next few weeks as we wait for baby to make his/her arrival. Being a very planned person, it's so unbelievably strange to have no idea what the birth experience will be like or when it will happen. I'm excited to find out, but also very anxious.
This is an awesome Saturday morning- we slept in, made a nice breakfast, and got to relax together. I am trying to enjoy it, but am fighting thoughts about wondering when this baby will come, wishing it would come soon, wanting to be done with conferences next week/work in general, etc. Oh, the battles of the mind...
So, to try to take my mind off of the big things, here is a list of the little things I am thankful for this week. Because sometimes the little things are actually the biggest...
1. Making cookies.
2. Seeing my family.
3. Kids at school gently touching my belly.
4. Kids at school asking everyday when the baby will come (for some reason, that endless question never gets old).
5. Carrying a healthy baby (although that is actually a really big deal, and we are so thankful).
6. Feeling the baby move.
7. Sleeping better than I have been recently.
8. Really perfect grapes (only my dad truly understands this love).
9. Receiving a check in the mail for $20.08 from our insurance company, because apparently they made a mistake and we paid too much.
10. Our nursery furniture shipment arriving.
11. Sleeping in.
12. Installing our car seat and setting up baby swings.
13. Kley giving me really excellent foot rubs this week for my swollen feet (and he even painted my toenails, and actually did a really good job!).
14. Being prepared for conferences (now just getting through next week and meeting with the parents).
15. Having only two weeks of work left.
16. Planning a special day to celebrate my last day in two weeks together.
Hope you have a great weekend!
Saturday, September 27, 2014
The little things.
Wednesday, September 24, 2014
Living in the moment.
These last few days at school have been hard/long for me. You know when a big change is coming and that looming feeling you have over you (which can be both good or bad)? I definitely feel that. With being 36.5 weeks pregnant, to only having 2.5 more weeks of work left, to the impending arrival of baby De Jong...I definitely feel like huge change is ahead, which I am really looking forward to. I have always wanted to be a mom.
But, that is also making these days just creep by and feel really long. I have felt like I have been praying less and complaining more lately, and I don't like that or want that to be true. I selfishly just want to fast forward these next few weeks until I am done working and holding our little one. That is the worst, because I have definitely learned the hard way that discontentment is a really bad place to be. It inhibits so many things in life, especially my relationship with God. Whenever I want to fast forward (or rewind) time, I find myself discontent, which means I am more easily prone to complaining, whining, or just being grumpy.
I felt that today a lot- like the work day was endless and I just wanted to be done (especially since I dealt with several intense tantrums). Even though today wasn't the best and I came home feeling really worn out/tired/defeated, I don't want that to ruin the rest of my night or go into tomorrow with negative feelings (even though that can be hard sometimes).
I want to enjoy these last few days of work with my kids/coworkers, because I truly am blessed to work at such a great school. It has been an amazing place for me to grow spiritually and professionally. I love my kids and I love what I do. I want to soak up these last moments with them.
I want to enjoy these last couple weeks of pregnancy (however long I have left), and treasure the amazing moments where I get to feel this little one move. What an incredible feeling that's unlike anything else. Even though I feel uncomfortable at times, I am so grateful to be pregnant and that we are healthy.
There are big changes coming (really soon!) for us, and I am excited/anxious for them, but I don't want to lose this time I have now by wishing for something else/feeling discontent. I want to live these last days in the moment- embracing both my last days at school and my last days with this baby inside me.
Saturday, September 20, 2014
Apple picking that ended up at Hickory Park.
Monday, September 15, 2014
Family.
Saturday, September 13, 2014
The first (unplanned) visit.
Yesterday afternoon we went to the hospital! I was sort of freaked out, but actually not as bad as I thought I would be. For the past two days, I had slight vaginal bleeding, so after I saw it a couple times (it was very faint and not a lot, thankfully, but it was bright red), I figured I should call the doctor.
I have called my doctor with several other weird symptoms before and everything was totally fine, but this time I was surprised to hear her say that I needed to go to the hospital, and preferably now (I asked if I could go after work or if I should go now). I know you are supposed to tell your doctor about any bleeding at all, but I just figured that it wouldn't be a big deal since it wasn't a lot.
Fortunately, God took (and is taking) care of us and our sweet baby, and everything is fine. We are so thankful. We wondered in the car on the way there about what it would be like to have the baby right then, and Kley was so calm and comforting. (He has always handled stressful/unexpected situations WAY better and calmer than me.) Thankfully they said that both baby and I were fine, which is such a relief. I am not dilated at all yet and my cervix has not softened, which is good because it's too early. They said random bleeding sometimes just happens, but there was nothing concerning about me or the baby that worried them. So, we got to come home and thankfully I can keep all my normal activities. They just advised me to take it easy for the weekend.
It was reassuring to be hooked up to the monitor for about half an hour, so we got to hear baby's heartbeat that entire time! (Also, it helped to ease my nerves a little bit after the nurse gave us the TV remote, so I got to watch part of The Proposal instead of staring at the wall wondering.)
Today, I am so so thankful for a healthy and growing baby. We prepared to meet him/her possibly yesterday, but glad he/she has more time to get ready to come into the world.
Hopefully we don't have any more unplanned visits!
Thursday, September 11, 2014
Third Trimester weeks 31-34.
Tuesday, September 9, 2014
Woof.
Woof.
On Sunday, Kley started saying "woof" after minor unfortunate things that happen. Such as...
The dishwasher is full. Woof.
My favorite pair of pants are dirty. Woof.
It's raining outside. Woof.
At first, I thought it was annoying and I told him to stop. Then he told me where it's from (watch the clip above), and now I think it's absolutely hilarious.
So, since Sunday, we have been saying "woof" to each other and laughing every time. We'll see how long we think it's funny for...
(I also want to go watch Home Alone now.)
Sunday, September 7, 2014
Weekend with family/Latino Festival.
Saturday, September 6, 2014
Acts 19:12 and personal devotionals.
This morning I finished reading Acts. For awhile I was reading the Bible through the YouVersion phone app, doing different devotionals. I liked it, but after about six months I really missed my highlighter and holding my real Bible. So, for the past couple months, I am reading on paper instead of electronically, and I really like it. Who knows? Maybe I'll somehow develop a mix of both.
Also, I used to be very set on always reading at night. That worked well for me when I was younger and in college, as it wasn't hard to stay up later. Now it is. I am a morning person, so after feeling frustrated for missing days for awhile because I would forget or fall asleep, I switched to the morning. I wake up a little bit earlier and make sure it's the first thing I do. (Kley and I also do our couple devotionals together at night, after dinner, so it's nice to spread those out throughout the day.)
It's been going quite well and I am happy with the switch! It's been easier for me to be consistent, and I like having something to fill me up in the morning.
So, I guess what I'm saying is that if you are feeling frustrated with how your daily devotionals are going, try changing it! I know that's easier said than done sometimes, especially for those who don't like change (like me). But, I finally did it after feeling frustrated for a long time, and it's been so worth it.
This morning I finished Acts. I hadn't read it in awhile, and I really enjoyed reading it again! I can't believe all the hardships Paul endured and how no matter what he went through, it keeps talking about how Paul continued to share the word "boldly." I would like to have more boldness. A lot more.
One verse that particularly stood out to me that I don't remember ever realizing before was Acts 19:11-12- God did extraordinary miracles through Paul, so that even handkerchiefs and aprons that had touched him were taken to the sick, and their illnesses were cured and the evil spirits left them.
Isn't that amazing? Wow. I want to be used like that.