Wishin' and Hopin'.

When I was thinking about this post, I thought about this song from My Best Friend's Wedding.

I am involved in a women's Bible study that meets on Tuesday nights. I initially was hesitant about joining, because of the whole busy factor, but I am so glad that I did and God clearly led me there. We are reading Calm My Anxious Heart by Linda Dillow, and it's speaking to my soul. It's basically about worry and anxiety, which is something I struggle with.

Last week we discussed being content in our current circumstances. It was a convicting chapter for me, and also encouraging. It's so easy to get wrapped up in planning for the future, that I miss some of the blessings God is giving me right now.

This is especially true for me currently, as this next year will be huge for us, with graduation, moving, buying a house, children possibly, Kley starting to work...lots of change. All good things, but it's been a struggle for me to trust God in His ultimate plan, because I want to be the planner and have everything work out exactly like I want.

The question that really hit me was: Do you believe that God is the Blessed Controller of all things in your life?

Sadly, recently I have been thinking and acting like the answer to that question is no.

God has placed me in these exact circumstances right now for a purpose, and if I am wrapped up in something else, then I am missing the blessings God is lavishing on me today. I don't want that.

It's not bad to think about and plan for the future. But, I need to be trusting enough to allow Him to work. Trust His timing and not act like I am God, when I am clearly not.

God, thank you for your perfect plan and timing for me. You are the Blessed Controller of my life. I don't want to wish and hope for what I want, but what You want. Your plans and purposes for me are GOOD, even if it doesn't always appear that way to me. Give me faith to trust what You say, that You're good and Your love is great! (lyrics from one of my current favorite worship songs)